Thanks my BFF

After all these years, all these things we gone through, I'm really glad to had you.
You are the best thing I ever had in my life.
Thank you for calling me and chat with me,
thank you for soothed me with your thoughts, your opinions and your experiences.
I'll try to change, change back to the previous ckc that you knew.
I couldn't make a promise to you, I just will try my own best to do it for my own's sake.
Sorry for kicked you out previously, maybe is me being scare to get hurt by ppl. I am sorry.
I never stand on your side, I never care your feeling, maybe I did,
I just don't want to continue, that was previous me.
And I know, you're treating me so good that you never treat others like this.
I am extremely grateful to you for always standing on my stance, giving me support, caring me, made concession to me and meet me halfway.
Yea, I should learn from mistake, shouldn't regret from mistake.
After chat with you, I realized I never learn from my mistakes and always felt regret of every decision I've made.
Undeniably, I am the only one who never move forward, always stays there, the past.
I miss my high school's life, I wish I could get back there, I lives in my past, I never move on.
It's time for me to get rid of it, let it be a memory,
do not lingering the past, do not too indulge it.
I feel secure when I'm with you, probably you will help me everything out.
You asked me why I seldom talk and keep silent when I am with you both?
Cause I feels strange, maybe we seldom see each other, I need time to work through my feelings, I need time to get familiar with you both, all I need is time. If I make you strange, I'm sorry about that. You really a good friend I ever had, I don't believe in eternity, but still I want to say you're my BFF. Tomorrow is the last day you stay in Ipoh, wish you all the best in your study and have a safe journey. Have to wait until next year only then can meet you, so, take good care of yourself. See ya soon.

How To Save A Life?

Things had changed after you went to Singapore.
I've had changed, too much. I hates to text msg and reply msg, I hates to socialize, I hates to be isolated, I hates to make new friend, I hates to be with stranger although he/she is my friend's friend. I hates it all...
I become strange. I don't know why things ended up like this. I was good in social previously,
but now I refused to do so, I don't like stranger come closer to me, I don't like to talk when a gang hang out grab some drink. But I pretending I don't hates it, I acted like the formal 'Me', it was embarrasing, you know? That was outside of me, nobody knows inside me, I just don't like the feeling.
It was hypocrite, but what can I do? Could somebody tell me, what should I do?
Today, I shouldn't acting like this, but I just couldn't handle my feeling, emotion.
I knew it, before we went to the gathering, I knew it, they will just focus on you, they won't notice my present. When they noticed me, my mood was spoilt, I've nothing to say, I just keep silent, they said silent is gold. I couldn't agree more.
Sorry to my friends, let you guys worry about me, maybe I am too indulge myself, maybe I became secretive and withdrawn. I can't find someone to talk to, I always talk to myself.
I can't believe in human, I can't trust human, sometimes I wish I could release it out, but I trust no one, I'm suffering...
My aunt was worrying me getting psychotic disorder, so do I.
I can't address those problems, I can't deal with it, I'm getting sick.
Anyone could pull me off this kind of situation? I want to get rid of it, but I couldn't.

Enjoy

It's been two months didn't update my blog, wow, it's just not like me.. lol
Actually I've nothing to write about, XD.
I've been Ipoh, my hometown, more than a month and without getting any job, haha..
Is quite leisure. Why don't I get a job during my vacation? Well, is because I want to rest my body and prepare myself to go further for my long walks.. haha..
And another reason was, my best friend have a term break so I decided to enjoy my day before he get back to study. Although just two of us, (cause many of them 'put aeroplane'), and a lil bit bored but still I do enjoy it. We have two movies in a week, actually we planned for 4 movies in a week to break the record, but we couldn't make it, cause tickets are sold out.. lol, it was pathetic! We watched 'Kung Fu Panda 2' and 'Super 8', well, both are nice though. What else to write?
Hmmm, I've a great friday night with my best friend, well, don't think too much, we didn't do anything, at least not that thing, XD. We grabbed some beers and chatting with each other, it's been a long time I didn't have such a good time with my best friend. I know it wouldn't have another time for us to grab beers to confide in, so I do enjoyed it. That day I was so emo at the morning probably is because listened to adele's songs. And at the afternoon, Yee Wei sent me a msg told me that the plan going to lost world was cancel. I was super duper annoying, so do him.. So, we decided to drink and drunk, just want to let our brains to stop working a lil while. We do not want to think anymore, XD. Let's get drunk and throw everything behind us~yay
Recently, a lot of thing happened on me, I just feels like don't wanna to think and threw it away, when I get myself up, I'll face it anyways.. Haiz
After three days start from now on, my days will get back to normal, so, I'll enjoy my three days left.. Enjoy till the max~ Wuhoo~ I'm looking for a job, any recommendation? Lol..

Someone Like You

已有兩個月沒更新我的部落格了，也沒什麼要寫，
只是想與大家分享一片文章是摘自于其它部落格。
本人超喜歡這首歌，''Someone Like You'' - Adele
不妨上youtube聽聽吧。

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

人在这世上的力量其实很渺小。
很多，不，几乎所有事情都由不得你掌控。
就说人与人之间的关系好了。
你期望从某人身上得到的，他未必能够达到你的期望。
什么友情什么爱情，只要是人类有份噶一脚的，鬼样的都会变得复杂。
你有你的他，我有我的他，他有他的他。
没办法，人与人的关系图不是one-to-one function。没那么简单。

Somebody just can't reciprocate your feelings.

他们没错，怪就怪自己太傻太固执。
得不到了，有些人很豪放的大唱Cee Lo Green的 ‘Fuck You’（‘忘记你’的原版）。
有些可怜虫就只能点Adele大姐的‘Someone Like You’。
很无奈的对放不下的自己说‘我会找到一个替代品’
很无奈的对无情的他说‘求你别忘了我’
还是不肯放弃就继续加油吧……或许有一天实货会回来把赝品赶走。
加油，孩子们。不管你是在等待着你心中的bff还是bf/gf回应。
I wish nothing but the best for you =)



"There is nothing quite like the feeling when you are listening to a song written by someone you don't know, who you've never met, who somehow manages to describe exactly how you felt at a particular moment in your life. If you've ever had a broken heart, you are about to remember it now."

话说Adele大姐真的很强大 :')
一把心碎的声音就足以感动大众。花瓶们，靠边站吧。
在这住着孤单孩子们的城市里，一副独特又动人心弦的嗓子才是王道。

I heard that you're settled down,

That you found a girl and you're married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,

We were born and raised in a summer haze,

Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,

No worries or cares,

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead.

Posted by karin chan at Wednesday, April 27, 2011

我該怎樣做才好？

告訴我朋友的責任是什麽？到底怎樣才能做到真正的朋友？

覺得很累，每當要維持一段友情都覺得很累。

又或者我不該每次都拿我的原則放在朋友的身上？

不是每個人都能像我這樣，又或者說不是每個人都能適應我的原則。

我所謂的原則令到很多朋友不敢再靠近我。我知道我不是每次都是對的那一個。

其實我懂的，我已經很努力了，爲什麽就總覺得好像怎樣做也做不好？

對於有些朋友，我會提高警惕，或許自我保護意識太強吧，我不想任何人傷害到我。

對於有些朋友，我會用心良苦，或許這就是朋友階級吧。

又或者我該像bobo所說的’ I’ve given up on the terms of best friend. Rather than having one best friend, I think it’s better to have a bunch of friends.’

但，人生中總會有一個特別好的朋友，所以不能完全像他所說的那樣。

一時真的很想isolate自己，不再與任何人有任何朋友的關係。

發覺自己越來越脆弱，尤其是在面對朋友的問題時。

我該放棄我的原則還是放棄我的朋友？

Chee Meng,其實我懂家人是最重要的，只是當我離家遠時，我得靠朋友。

我的依賴性很強，我需要一位朋友能夠明白我，體諒我，安慰我及支持我。

可能是我的脆弱導致吧。

誰能告訴我該怎樣做？難道我真的有錯嗎？

Echoes Of The Rainbow

終於都看了‘歲月神偷’這出戲。

故事內容很有意思也很感人。

在看這部戲的當中，

讓我感到很溫暖，很溫馨。

劇中的兄弟情，親情以及那小村的感情，

真讓我回味及溫暖。

很喜歡他們在村子里晚餐的時候，

他們之間的感情猶如大家是一家人，

無需客氣，當需要時都會伸出援手。

5,60年代的生活，被導演羅啟銳拍得如此的味道。

那時候的生活還蠻難過，香港還被英國統治時，

他們要做生意，要繳費給政府。

劇中的任達華努力的賺錢讓自己的兒子讀名校，

辛苦的工作，每到月頭就立即幫兒子繳學費，

免得被其他同學看不起。

這一幕真的觸動我的心，那段父子情，

比任何東西都來得重要。

可惜的是，歲月卻帶走了他們的兒子。

爲什麽我會用

‘歲月’這詞眼而不是用‘天’呢？

主題都已寫了，‘歲月神偷’，

當讓要配合主題。

歌曲的旋律以及感人的故事，

讓我一觸即發，觸動我的內心。

在此也要介紹主題曲給你們聽聽，

李治廷的‘歲月輕狂’和

‘Echoes of the Rainbow’。

劇中的那首‘I wanna to be free’by monkees

也不錯，不妨聽聽。

原來最大的小偷是歲月。
歲月奪走了許許多多的回憶；
歲月奪走了許許多多身邊的親人；
希望你麼看過這部戲后，能夠珍惜所有的東西，
珍惜所有愛你們，珍惜你們的親人與朋友。
當歲月慢慢的逼近時，要珍惜時，一切都已太遲。
別讓歲月有機可趁，珍惜吧~

歲月神偷

今天emo了一整天。
就因為聽了李治廷的‘Echoes of the Rainbow'，
華語版本是‘歲月輕狂’。
這首歌很sad。
自從回來這裡后，整個人都變得很脆弱了，
或許我本來就是那麼的脆弱？
這首歌是我無意中click到，聽了后整個人很down,
很emo,很想哭也很想回家。
這首歌是“歲月神偷”的主題曲，這部戲應該也很感人，
所以就叫朋友幫我download，打算看了再痛哭一場，
或許這樣的心情會好很多。
Emo了整個下午，在msn見到bobo就介紹給他聽。
他說這首歌很悲，問我是不是很喜歡聽悲歌？
我的腦停頓了一下在想，你應該知道我很喜歡聽悲歌啊，
爲什麽還會問我這樣的問題？
是不是我們的友情沒以前那麼的要好了，這些你都給忘了？
算吧，這個並不是重點。
已經很久沒emo了，你都知道，
最讓我諷刺的是你問我明知道會emo爲什麽還去聽這首歌？
還以為我不會再像以前那麼的emo。
或許你已經忘了我是個多愁傷感的人，很喜歡聽抒情歌，
然後就很容易的被某首歌牽引我的情緒。
其實我并不怪，人是沒可能每天都那麼的開心，
一定會不開心，又或者久久就會emo一次。
或許已有半年沒emo了，一emo就emo gao gao...
傍晚見到很美麗的風景，更添我的傷感，
讓我想起了‘夕陽無限好，只是近黃昏’，
那一刻的美就真的維持那麼的一刻，美是沒有永恆的。
到現在心情都還沒平復。剛才有少許的平復，
因為有朋友的陪伴，晚餐回來后心情又充滿了漣漪。
我的心情完全被這首歌控制了，它讓我想起很多過去，
很多很多真的很多很多那些我不願去想也不想去想的事情。
或許這才是真正的我。



在變幻的生命里
歲月，原是最大的小偷......
And in the end
The greatest thief of all is Time......