Outing with Jujube

It's been three weeks didn't update my blog.
I have lots of fun with Jujube last night at De Garden.
Apparently, three hours really not enough for us.
Our first round was in 'Strawberry Moment' to have dessert after our dinner.
Undoubtedly, the desserts was nice, prices are reasonable and affordable.
I ordered 'Melt in Mouth' as my dessert and Jujube ordered 'Ava bla bla bla', sorry, forgot the dessert's name. Lol.

Melt in Mouth.

Ava bla bla bla...

She's the one I liked to hang out with, we talked a lot,

unstoppable talking with her life's stories and my stories.
She changed a lot, maybe should've write she learnt a lot from her past-life.

While I still standing there, without any remorse what I did in my past.
She had gone through something that meant a lot to her, well, so am I.

Just we're different individual, have different perspective to everything,

we have our own thoughts for certain things.
I'm happy for her that she found her own self by an incident.

When it comes to my story, I was totally flabbergasted by her remarked ‘so, did you tell your aunt after you jerked off?’ (Cause I said I tell everything to my aunt)

Awkward silent for a while, and I was like ‘Wow, this girl, is it that Jujube I knew?’ Cause she never talk about these things. What an amusing joke.

After Strawberry Moment, we went to second round. We were searching the right place to continue our topic. Our second round was in ‘Oval De Garden’, is a bar actually. It was hot like hell when we got there. We ordered liquor as our drink. Hoegaarden and Leffe Brune, both are from Belgium. Ironically, when we order our drink, the waiter looked at me and said ‘this liquor contains 8.8% of alcohol but it was out of stock.’ Wth! Actually Jujube not allowed me to order that liquor cause later I’ve to ride motorbike to my friend’s house.

Hoegaarden

She was trying my Leffe Brune.

I like this picture pretty much. She was grinning at her way, a natural way.

We chat until twelve quarter, and she have to go back due to I’ve a movie at 12:30am.

Time passed, I hope time could stop there, or give me a lil more time, three hours really not suffice enough for me to chat with her. No doubt, I liked to chat with her individually, without a third party present, it felt nice.

A Big THANK to you, my friend, you brighten up my day.

Leave me alone

These days wasn't good for me..
I feels emptiness, I feels lonely, I'm alone..
I'm avoiding the world, I'm avoiding things around me,
I'm avoiding everything, I'm avoiding my friends..
Sorry for didn't pick up your calls,
Sorry for didn't reply your msgs.
Just leave me alone..
Do not call me..
Do not msg me..
Do not find me in facebook..
Do not find me in msn and skype..
Do not inbox me..
I will not reply..
Just give me some time to deal with my feeling..
I will get through it someday..
I don't know how long it takes,
Just leave me alone..
Everything will be fine after this..

Confused

Recently, I've been avoiding my friends who comes to me.
I refused to answer the called, refused to reply msg from my friends unless he/she is my close friend. I've no idea why?
I'm straying from my path.
My friend were asking me out to have a gathering, I don't know whether I should go or not.
I feels strange to them, it happens in a sudden which I really don't know how to face it.
I am lost. I am fear, but I don't know what I fears about?
I am hesitating, should I go?
I don't really like crowded or a whole gang to hang out, even my gang.
A sudden change making me hard to adapt it.
I don't like to talk, maybe I should write ignored to talk.
I used to talk, and I talk a lot with my aunt, but when comes to friends, I just refused to talk.
I'm confusing why I'll be like this.

Thanks my BFF

After all these years, all these things we gone through, I'm really glad to had you.
You are the best thing I ever had in my life.
Thank you for calling me and chat with me,
thank you for soothed me with your thoughts, your opinions and your experiences.
I'll try to change, change back to the previous ckc that you knew.
I couldn't make a promise to you, I just will try my own best to do it for my own's sake.
Sorry for kicked you out previously, maybe is me being scare to get hurt by ppl. I am sorry.
I never stand on your side, I never care your feeling, maybe I did,
I just don't want to continue, that was previous me.
And I know, you're treating me so good that you never treat others like this.
I am extremely grateful to you for always standing on my stance, giving me support, caring me, made concession to me and meet me halfway.
Yea, I should learn from mistake, shouldn't regret from mistake.
After chat with you, I realized I never learn from my mistakes and always felt regret of every decision I've made.
Undeniably, I am the only one who never move forward, always stays there, the past.
I miss my high school's life, I wish I could get back there, I lives in my past, I never move on.
It's time for me to get rid of it, let it be a memory,
do not lingering the past, do not too indulge it.
I feel secure when I'm with you, probably you will help me everything out.
You asked me why I seldom talk and keep silent when I am with you both?
Cause I feels strange, maybe we seldom see each other, I need time to work through my feelings, I need time to get familiar with you both, all I need is time. If I make you strange, I'm sorry about that. You really a good friend I ever had, I don't believe in eternity, but still I want to say you're my BFF. Tomorrow is the last day you stay in Ipoh, wish you all the best in your study and have a safe journey. Have to wait until next year only then can meet you, so, take good care of yourself. See ya soon.

How To Save A Life?

Things had changed after you went to Singapore.
I've had changed, too much. I hates to text msg and reply msg, I hates to socialize, I hates to be isolated, I hates to make new friend, I hates to be with stranger although he/she is my friend's friend. I hates it all...
I become strange. I don't know why things ended up like this. I was good in social previously,
but now I refused to do so, I don't like stranger come closer to me, I don't like to talk when a gang hang out grab some drink. But I pretending I don't hates it, I acted like the formal 'Me', it was embarrasing, you know? That was outside of me, nobody knows inside me, I just don't like the feeling.
It was hypocrite, but what can I do? Could somebody tell me, what should I do?
Today, I shouldn't acting like this, but I just couldn't handle my feeling, emotion.
I knew it, before we went to the gathering, I knew it, they will just focus on you, they won't notice my present. When they noticed me, my mood was spoilt, I've nothing to say, I just keep silent, they said silent is gold. I couldn't agree more.
Sorry to my friends, let you guys worry about me, maybe I am too indulge myself, maybe I became secretive and withdrawn. I can't find someone to talk to, I always talk to myself.
I can't believe in human, I can't trust human, sometimes I wish I could release it out, but I trust no one, I'm suffering...
My aunt was worrying me getting psychotic disorder, so do I.
I can't address those problems, I can't deal with it, I'm getting sick.
Anyone could pull me off this kind of situation? I want to get rid of it, but I couldn't.

Enjoy

It's been two months didn't update my blog, wow, it's just not like me.. lol
Actually I've nothing to write about, XD.
I've been Ipoh, my hometown, more than a month and without getting any job, haha..
Is quite leisure. Why don't I get a job during my vacation? Well, is because I want to rest my body and prepare myself to go further for my long walks.. haha..
And another reason was, my best friend have a term break so I decided to enjoy my day before he get back to study. Although just two of us, (cause many of them 'put aeroplane'), and a lil bit bored but still I do enjoy it. We have two movies in a week, actually we planned for 4 movies in a week to break the record, but we couldn't make it, cause tickets are sold out.. lol, it was pathetic! We watched 'Kung Fu Panda 2' and 'Super 8', well, both are nice though. What else to write?
Hmmm, I've a great friday night with my best friend, well, don't think too much, we didn't do anything, at least not that thing, XD. We grabbed some beers and chatting with each other, it's been a long time I didn't have such a good time with my best friend. I know it wouldn't have another time for us to grab beers to confide in, so I do enjoyed it. That day I was so emo at the morning probably is because listened to adele's songs. And at the afternoon, Yee Wei sent me a msg told me that the plan going to lost world was cancel. I was super duper annoying, so do him.. So, we decided to drink and drunk, just want to let our brains to stop working a lil while. We do not want to think anymore, XD. Let's get drunk and throw everything behind us~yay
Recently, a lot of thing happened on me, I just feels like don't wanna to think and threw it away, when I get myself up, I'll face it anyways.. Haiz
After three days start from now on, my days will get back to normal, so, I'll enjoy my three days left.. Enjoy till the max~ Wuhoo~ I'm looking for a job, any recommendation? Lol..

Someone Like You

已有兩個月沒更新我的部落格了，也沒什麼要寫，
只是想與大家分享一片文章是摘自于其它部落格。
本人超喜歡這首歌，''Someone Like You'' - Adele
不妨上youtube聽聽吧。

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

人在这世上的力量其实很渺小。
很多，不，几乎所有事情都由不得你掌控。
就说人与人之间的关系好了。
你期望从某人身上得到的，他未必能够达到你的期望。
什么友情什么爱情，只要是人类有份噶一脚的，鬼样的都会变得复杂。
你有你的他，我有我的他，他有他的他。
没办法，人与人的关系图不是one-to-one function。没那么简单。

Somebody just can't reciprocate your feelings.

他们没错，怪就怪自己太傻太固执。
得不到了，有些人很豪放的大唱Cee Lo Green的 ‘Fuck You’（‘忘记你’的原版）。
有些可怜虫就只能点Adele大姐的‘Someone Like You’。
很无奈的对放不下的自己说‘我会找到一个替代品’
很无奈的对无情的他说‘求你别忘了我’
还是不肯放弃就继续加油吧……或许有一天实货会回来把赝品赶走。
加油，孩子们。不管你是在等待着你心中的bff还是bf/gf回应。
I wish nothing but the best for you =)



"There is nothing quite like the feeling when you are listening to a song written by someone you don't know, who you've never met, who somehow manages to describe exactly how you felt at a particular moment in your life. If you've ever had a broken heart, you are about to remember it now."

话说Adele大姐真的很强大 :')
一把心碎的声音就足以感动大众。花瓶们，靠边站吧。
在这住着孤单孩子们的城市里，一副独特又动人心弦的嗓子才是王道。

I heard that you're settled down,

That you found a girl and you're married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,

We were born and raised in a summer haze,

Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,

No worries or cares,

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead.

Posted by karin chan at Wednesday, April 27, 2011